I'm bored...No, I'm not.

I don't know who reads my blog. I don't know who's interested on reading things that is not supposed to be shared and I also don't know if I am making sense here. The last time that I blogged was for the purpose of passing my Creative Writing Class. It's two years ago and I didn't imagine myself that I'm almost there, going out to the real world. Yeah, many call the after college life the "real world". Isn't this a real-world we're living even if we're still studying? Yeah, it's funny how people label things and what's even funnier is that we conform to these labels we made.Going back, I am back to blogging because I cannot contain to myself the experiences I am having right now as I am having my practice teaching, yes, I am an English Teacher.

I am a student-teacher now. I am currently having my practicum at Arellano High School in Sta.Cruz, Manila. Life in school is not as easy as when you are the student. It is a really different thing when you are the one standing up in front of the 40 or more children everyday compare to when you are the one just sitting there and waiting for what the teacher has to say.You are the teacher now. You are the one in charge of the students, the biggest responsibility is within your hands and that is to shape the minds of the youth.You don't just simply give your lesson, check their test, have recitations or what ever you have to do in class. You have a greater responsibility than that and I can say, as how things are going on in there, IT WAS NEVER EASY AND I THINK THERE"S NO WAY IT WOULD BE EASY.It would never be easy because there is no shortcut in the experiences that awaits you.

Everyday, since I started last November 2013, my thoughts, my ideas, my opinions on how to dealt on things has really change. Before, I was too idealistic. I often think that things would always perfectly go as I planned it. But realizations came to me easily that not everything that you wanted to can happen. I learned that no matter how hard you try to do things on your way, there are uncertainties along that way. But that didn't allow me to give up, instead, it taught me to be stronger, optimistic and be more creative on solving my problems. It also allowed me to be more understanding to my students. I realized that there's always room for mistakes and they need my understanding for them to grew better. I should hold on to my temper and always extend my patience whenever I am about to burst into anger. Anger would not be bring something good to you and to your students. Anger would just lead to regrets and disappointment because it would just consume you.

Being a teacher is a noble profession but it is not always rainbows and butterflies. Being a teacher brings you a lot of stress, anger, frustrations and all but the reward of appreciation and love from the people whom you have touched is really priceless. I am not that experienced to give advice but as what I have been through these past months, I can say that I am on the process on becoming one. I have a very very very long way to go. I wish and pray for the best. I always trust my hopes and not my fears. And to those who have read until here, I am more than thankful to you. You are free to judge me, but you can't deny me. I am just being freeeee. Hay! I feel so bless! :D